A Happy but Clueless Girl

Hey guys! How are youu? How was your weekend? (Okayyy.. Wth? Soalan common. hehee) ;p

Me? Grrrrreat! I am really really in a good mood lately. Probably because I have just finished my very last paper last week! Phewwww..

It was a 2 and a half hour paper. Full essay from A to Z. Gosh..I hate essays. Especially if I can't remember my points! But if my memory system in my brain is functioning normally on that day, then I'd be so happy to answer all of the questions, with long long looooongg explanations. hahaha

Things I usually bring in the examination hall room: Lots and lotsa pens/pencils/highlighters/erasers/correction fluids/etc - The reason why I bring so many stationary items in the hall, because I need to have back ups just in case my pen dies while answering the questions (I do not want to experience like Mr. Bean had! haha), next is Matric Card, Exam Slip, Calculator (if needed), Tissue Paper, Mineral Water 1.5 Litre, Car Keys. Hmm.. that's all I think..

But this time, since it's my last paper, I brought along my camera too, for me to snap some photos after the exam has ended.. Well, just for memories sake =)

Exam Venue: CAC Conference Room 1 & 2, Subject: System Analysis & Design, Time & Date: 2.30 pm - 5.00 pm, 16th June 2010

Okayyy.. Starts answering, students!! 10 short essays, 3 long essays. Hmm..sounds like fun! LOL ;p

Hmm..after a good 2 hours, I managed to answer everything. I think I did okayy. I was happy the whole time I answered the questions. Oh so magical! haha. ;p Well the moment I opened the question booklet, I smiled happily! Kinda prepare for that questions.. Yeayyy.. So I really hope I can score for this subject. Oh well..it all depends on the lecturer's generosity and err..the accuracy of my answers too, I guess..hehe.. So jangan happy sangat, nanti esok esok keluar result, sedih kang baru tahuu.;p

Anyways, I didn't get out earlier though. I used that extra 30 minutes to check back everything, every word, every spelling, sentences, every graph and drawing, and I even highlighted the words with orange, yellow, pink, blue, green for some key important points for the answers, for easy grading and marking. 

So Dr. Hizam, you better give me an A! hehe =)

Anyways..now that my exams are over..and studying life is finally over, I really really have no idea what to do next. I mean, I am torn between pursuing my studies to the next level, which is Masters, or Working.

Well, I have spoken to my dad regarding this matter. Years ago, he used to support me to further my studies right after I graduated. But knowing my dad, he would usually say like some positive things you wanna hear, but when the time has come, for some reasons, he sort of hesitating to do it. hehe. So before I start planning something, I asked him again the other day just to make sure.. Because I do not want to plan everything like doing some sort of a research on where to study, the costs, the subjects, studying the map of the selected university, finding out the standard of living there, explore the places such as where to live, the public transportation, the halal food area, and so on and so forth, just yet. 

I do not want to plan/search for everything, and then when asked, all the effort will be crushed into pieces because daddy didn't allow me to. Hmm.. so that's why I prefer to ask him again before starting to do my research. (Sebab benda ni bukannya nak rushing rushing pon. Bila-bila boleh start belajar, right?)

And yup, as expected he said it would be better if I pursue my master when I am a bit older (and wiser) and had some experience of working for about a few years. Well, he got some points there and there's some reasons behind it too, actually.

So yes, true that. I agree.

But..I've seen many people take masters right after their degree programme these days. Right guys? And I have asked their opinion too, and they said, they can still cope and manage as it's not that hard and have a huge difference with degree pun. Hmm.. I dunno about that, sebab susah and senang sesuatu benda tu, is really really subjective. Some people said this thing is so easy, and that thing is hard, and some won't agree with any of it. Or whatever.. Hmmm.. So I dunno.  =/

Actually the reason why I wanted to further my studies right after this, is because a) Degree is too common now. And I have always imagined/wanted to get at least a master just like my dad b) I want to get a master at a young age c) I want to experience to learn in a different environment d) I am still not married yet so I can focus and give full commitment e) I want to learn to be independent and live on my own  f) I am still in the mood to study - I'm afraid that once I work, I don't have a heart to further my studies anymore.. and lastly and most importantly is because g) I am still not ready physically, emotionally and mentally to have a real job. I mean, I am not ready yet to face the world that has no endings. Work, work, work and work every morning from Monday till Friday, and every year until I'm old! I do not want to work like a dog! Goshh..that sucks! hahaha ;p Can't I just study my wholeeee life? Cehhh..macam lah rajin sangat! haha =P

Anyway, mom agreed on this. I mean, she wanted me to pursue.. while daddy, for some reasons he is still hesitating. Hmm.. I am not complaining or whining ke apa.. Not at all. I mean, it is totally my dad's rights and choice. Ye lah, saya anak dia, still under jagaan dia, all the decision and financial planning/source would be from him. So..apa-apa pun, kena dengar cakap dia. Plus, I know he is worried about me studying there alone. Makan minum saya, sakit saya, transportation saya, pergaulan saya and et cetera..

Hmm.. Therefore, I am so clueless on what to plan next. I mean I know what I want, but..I can't have it just yet. So, might as well have some back up plans or something I guess.. Hmm..kalau I dah ada partner kan senang. Not that I am so desperado ke apa la kann.. I just mean like, at least boleh plan future sama-sama. Tak la pening sangat saya pikir sorang-sorang and then nanti plan saya clash dengan plan dia ke apa kan, bila nanti kita dua compare plan masing-masing..hahaha.. Apa aku merepek ni.. ;p (Oh, and for that partner/family part pun, I have another plan! Adeii..banyak betul plan aku ni. haha)  

Haihhh.. Banyak nya kena plan hidup ni!! I hate growing up! =(

Hmm..but whatever it is, all I know is that, as of right now..I do not want to find a job straight away. I want to relax for a few months (five freaking years of studying is sooooo long man! I deserve a break! heh), and then kalau nak kerja baru lah okay..kot? Tah lah.

Kalau end of this year I baru nak start kerja, lama sangat ke cuti I tu? hehee. Or perhaps January next year je lah I start. Lama sikit I boleh lepak, before I start working sampai ke tua.. 

Half a year I cuti, ok lah tu kan kann untuk kerja for like what 20, 30 years straight?! Goshhhh.. Even the thought of it makes me sick! Ishh... Life's suck! hahaha ;p

Plus, there are so many things this 21 year old girl have in her mind for her 'Summer Break'. She wants to travel, she wants to learn to cook (sebab nanti dah start kerja mesti penat selalu or dah hilang mood nak belajar masak..hehe), she needs to finish selling her stuff and clear off her closet, she extremely needs to lose weight, and so many many many things that 'She needs'.

Therefore, she just wants to breathe and relax for now!

Boleh tak? heh

P/S: So kakak-kakak sekalian, what are your opinions? Sambung study ke? Or kerja terus ke? Or kerja for a few years and then only I should pursuing my studies ke.. Or what? What do you think?

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XOXO,

S.