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I have less than 10 days to be married to the man of my dreams. I don't quite know how exactly I feel right now. I'm excited. I'm scared. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm nervous. I'm grateful. I'm... I'm....STRESSING OUTTTTTTTT!!!! haha

The four months journey to plan my own wedding day is almost come to a reality now. My parents has given me the freedom to be my own wedding planner. They let me decide and choose whatever I want for my wedding. And for that, I am truly grateful. Alhamdullilah, mashaallah. God knows how grateful I am to be blessed by such amazing parents, who tried to give the best for their last daughter... Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah. Thank you mom and dad! I'm forever grateful!

Well...at first, it was soooo fun, planning my own wedding! So fun that I decided to be a wedding planner some day. hahaha. It has always been my dream to plan my own wedding. BUT, towards the final month of the planning process...I couldn't keep my calm anymore, so much to do, yet so little time!!! (and that explains why you haven't been receiving any updates on my wedding journey here)

This bride-to-be just couldn't handle a lot of things anymore... Time is ticking, yet there's just so manyyyyyy things to think about! There's entertainment, the caterers, the food menus, the invitation cards, the guest lists, the music, the flowers, the dresses, the favors, the decorators, the videographers, yadda yadda yadda, the list goes on and on! So many detail stuff for a wedding!! Thus, I couldn't keep my cool and lost it few weeks ago and became that bridezilla who freaks out like a crazy person! hahaha. (But it was only that one time. Now I sorted that part already! Parents took charge! Phewww... Worry no more! ^__^ ) - I mean, I have 3 weddings and 1 event from my side alone, to think and to plan perfectly! Imagine, planning 4 different menus, 4 different dresses, 4 different cards, 4 different this and that..etc. Almost every thing must times by four! Of course doing it ALONE would make me go crazy if I couldn't get everything ready/done within the limited time frame that I have, right?! It's not like it's a huge wedding or anything. Believe me, my wedding is just like any other weddings you've seen before. So really, it's not that big of a deal, I know. It's the same old, same old process. But hey, I've never been married before! I never handled any events at all...and now, I'm handling and have four events to plan and to think about??! And it's WEDDINGS. Which is a big thing I suppose?  Of course I freaked out when I know time is my enemy, and lotsa things have not settled yet. tskkk. 

I didn't want to susahkan my parents to stress out for my wedding like they did during my sisters' time. Aku yang stress tengok diorang stress last time. lol. So dah cukup bertuah I get what I want for my wedding. My intention was not to burden my dad or my mom with the wedding stress (they have other things to handle and to stress about at the moment). So I just need to do the research on my own and show my mom the quotations, the designs, the info, etc etc. Then she'd say yes or no, and later I'll decide and book. I know I could handle that, and didn't need to add on the stress for them to think, to plan, to research some more for me. Hence I took charge and plan it on my own. Lagi pun, wedding is a fun thing to plan, so I didn't mind at all! BUT......... it turns out, handling YOUR OWN wedding could be such a challenging, stressful, maddening, upsetting task some how. You DO need a planner or secretary to help you out, otherwise you'd be a bridezilla like me! Cuz in those Cinderella/Disney/love  movies you watched, they didn't really tell you the process of getting married. They just showed you the end result on the wedding day itself. LOL. So yes, if you're planning to get married, hire someone to plan for you. Don't plan it yourself! Go focus on being a glowing beautiful bride! (I'm too late for that now! tskkkk T__T )

At first, we wanted to get a real wedding planner. But then...some things happened, and we decided not to hire any. Plus, my mom is a GREAT planner herself. I love her taste and her ideas. So, she decided to plan herself (although two of my sisters did have a wedding planner for their big day last time). But this time around, my mom said, she could handle it as she already has 2 married daughters, and she knows what's she's doing. 

So okay, I let her decide and take charge of my wedding.

But.......a few months ago, after I was being "Merisik". I got really excited that finally, I have a "proper" marriage planning. Excitedly, I did this "Road To My Wedding" book, and showed to my mom some of my ideas, likes/dislikes, etc. She was quite impressed by it as the book is kinda detailed I guess? She never knew that I kinda know a bit about wedding stuff kot? lol (Well, this girl watched a heck of a lot of love/wedding movies! So that helps! hahah :p)

I guess because of this detailed book, she kinda overlooked to plan her daughter's wedding, as she thought she had a planner already! LOL. So because it seemed like my mom gave me the green light to plan on my own few months ago, so I did all the planning by myself. I put my heart, body, mind and soul to my big day... With ups and downs, and sleepless nights of course! hehe

I did all my researches. I did my bookings. I did my negotiations. I went here and there, up and down, left and right. And I did all the planning! So now...after all the dramas and ups and downs, I'm finally going to close the book...and relax a bit, and just waiting for the day to come :')

So because I did all by myself...I really cherish every part of planning my wedding...and decided to document every moment towards my big day! 

Hence, that explains The Book! ;)

Some of the parts in the book...

This was the beginning... The Chapter One, in April 2013. 

And here comes December! My wedding month! Guys.....I'M GETTING MARRIED???!!!! O__o

(The last chapter will be in January 2014)

WISH ME LUCK!!!! I NEED ALL YOUR DOA!

:)

XOXO,
Bride-To-Be.